Life After Graduation is New....&Scary!

If I could sit down and be as honest as I would like to be, I feel like some feelings would be hurt. I have grown in so many ways and yet, God is showing all the time, how much growing I still have to do.

Yet my biggest thing, is learning how not to be so comfortable with one set way of thinking now. After attending college, the one thing I have learned is that everyone does not think like me. So much to the point that my view may be seen as completely unconstitutional so someone else. That's just life. However, with that same way of thinking I have grown to really start to appreciate having a mind of my own.

I am in a totally new world now. And I am honestly still getting adjusted to it. I am learning that as an adult in the real world, responsibilities are REAL LIFE lol. There is no such thing as putting things off really because eventually it will all catch up to you. I have also learned that as an adult, how you feel about other people or how you view certain ideas or situations change as well.

I am going through this whole metamorphosis type of change where I kinda of feel like I am learning how to walk all over again. Although it is new and exciting, it is a little scary because just because you are making this grandiose change doesn't mean that those in your circle are ready to make that change.

My wants, needs and desires have all changed. I have gone from thinking about what classes I am going to take to what area I would like to live in or better yet when I would like to start a family? What goals would I like to set for myself before I becoming a mother if it's the Lord's Will? Like things have gotten so real as of lately.

One afternoon, my boyfriend was driving me home. As he was driving, we began to think about life before and after graduation. Because I graduated before him, it has been pretty cool to be able to be the eyes for him on the "other side". I began telling him how different it is now that I am not a student anymore and in the "real world".  We started to create an imaginary list of all the changes and responsibilities that come with accepting that diploma. Although it is a freedom that can not be explained, with freedom comes new responsibilities...

I guess I am still just getting use to it all. I mean on one side it is amazing to be able to have an income, to be able to have a little be more freedom to plan out how I'd like things to go but on the other hand, people now rely on me for IMPORTANT THINGS. If I don't do my part, then someone else will be missing their part. To me, it is a new added pressure.

 I have been out of school for 6 months now and I am still learning more about the "adult Mahalia". I am still learning how to juggle all of my responsibilities (while maintaining a pretty good credit score). Mahalia is learning alot. A lot about herself, a lot about who she hangs with, alot about her relationship with God. So much!

Either way, I intend on blogging it all lol because maybe me trying to sort out my life will help someone else sort theirs. And I am totally okay with that :)


Until next time....God loves you... Soli de Gloria.