Sometimes It's Hard For Your Past To Say Goodbye..

August of 2010, I started my life as an Aggie at Texas A&M University. I came in with a mind excited for the college experience but at the same time I was entering with baggage from my hectic senior year of high school. Still I was ready to grow....ready to experience a new life and I did just that. 

First my freshman year, next sophomore, then junior but it wasn't until my senior year that I finally started to notice a mental change going on with in me. I noticed that who I cared about pleasing, I didn't anymore, there were certain things that I didn't need to do anymore to feel included. I had grown my own independent frame of mind and although I praised the change sometimes my past did not. 

The past is amazing. It will hunt you long enough to keep you where you are but then taunt you because you aren't moving at all. By August 2014, my final semester as an undergrad, I was ready to change things up for myself, I was ready to put into action the things that I needed to do so that I could grow spiritually, physically, and mentally. Sadly, my past wasn't and still hasn't been so cooperative.

The thing is I am noticing that I am not the same woman I was in 2010 trying to discover the essence of "she". It isn't some thing that is foreign to me now, I am really starting to see what works for Mahalia and I am also noticing that sometimes some people or even ways of thinking will combat with your growth process. They will hold you in a place where you were or where you were when they first met you and although this way of living may have worked for you then, it probably isn't flowing with you now.

LIFE DOES THAT! Within life, we grow, and change and it is best to be surrounded by those who are trying to do the samething and have the same expectations for you. I get it, sometimes it is hard to say goodbye to what you use to know, but imagine the excitement that's waiting on you behind the next door! 

But step one:...release of what you use to know.