Ever get tired of feeling like everyone else feels like they deserve a fulfilling life but you? They are entitled to a whole life surrounded by loving, caring people but you. You spend countless hours of your own existence trying to make sure everyone else is happy with you, making sure you don't let them down and then you realize your worth and that is when everything hits the fan.
I am so tired of people expecting me to forget myself so that they can be comfortable. I am totally over that notion. You know I partially blame myself for it, I have always been a people pleaser. Wanting everybody and their mama to like me and my decisions. In fact, when I would make my decisions, I would think about what others would think about my decisions so that everything remains kosher, so that the seas remain calm.
Then one day, Mahalia decided to remove what was toxic in her life. Negative ways, negative people. She decided to really ask God, "is this working for my life?" She decided to really learn herself and love who she has discovered. Whenever she has done that, all of a sudden she is the totally opposite of what she has always been. Suddenly she is selfish, rude, uncaring, UNCHRISTIAN, A TOTAL HYPOCRITE! ----- As I have gotten older, I am learning the importance of life being balanced and most importantly living life intentionally.
And sometimes...people just won't understand when it no longer benefits them.
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