I had many ups and downs but by the time I got to my final year, I felt a change in me. It felt like a cool, swift wind, in my inner self telling me, "Mahalia, it's time". I usually can always sense when it is time for a change because things look different to me. I start craving new possibilities and goals for my life. It's a scary but exciting feeling all balled up into one....and guess what.......
IT'S BAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKK!
Honestly, I am starting to get use to changes happening in a cycle for me now, I guess you can call it discernment which is one thing I appreciate from God. One thing God is teaching me is that you can not go into a new place in your life with an old mindset.
For example, I entered into a new place in my life fairly quickly after graduating. Not complaining, just saying, it was quick. Everything to a large extent seemed like a blur so when I was finally settling into my life as a Businesswomen instead of a College Student, I started to noticed that I still had that fearful college student frame of mind, which in no way is a plus in the real world.
I was scared of not being able to determine my future, unlike my class schedule that I could predict fairly easy before the beginning of each semester. It's funny really. The real world is in no way like college because to a large extent, we're sheltered. A Plan B is always provided like a safety net when you screw up. There is always a Plan B.
Well that changed January 2015. My life changed, so therefore I was required to change whether I was ready or not....which I wasn't. I was a wreck when I first got my job because it was my first big girl job. My first "I's a Woman NOW!" declaration to the World, which is cool but not always satisfying.
Well this month will make Month 8 of my this new Journey and well, a lot has changed within me. Certain ways of thinking, I just can't have anymore because I am starting to clearly see that it is getting in the way of my overall growth as a Woman & most importantly as a Believer. So I typed all this so explain my title which is also some one of an invitation from me to you to join me on this new journey within a journey :).
God has been revealing to me that I can not expect Him to make mighty, amazing moves in my life while still having a Spirit of disbelief, faithlessness, negativity and fear. Although He is such an Almighty God , He still loves us enough to not force to do something that we don't want to do. How amazing is that?? It's a relationship and that's what makes it all so amazing.
As I have been praying for Him to reveal the things within me that are not like Him, He has also been showing me that the company I keep is a key component to the person I am. So as I prayed this prayer of Purging my soul, He began to reveal to me people in my life that have in a way kept me from Him. The crazy thing is, they are not blaspheming His Word, they are not doing anything extremely but it is in fact my care for them that has been replacing my peace in Him.
*Deep right? It gets deeper*
We will never be able to escape people completely, especially those we care about. We do however, have the power to learn how to balance out our inner spiritual devotions & needs and the outside world that helps us search more for Him even more. It's a certain balance that comes into play as a Believer here on Earth. That is why I feel like having a Kingdom Mindset is so important, hence....
#OperationKingdomMindset
Refocusing my life on things that are pleasing to Him has become more important to me now than ever before. I guess it is because I am really starting a new place in my life where I have to learn to lean less on my mom and more on myself. The thing about that though is that I am weak and many times confused. Alot of times, I need help lol!
Even for those who don't believe in Christ, if you take out time to read the Bible, you will even see that alot of the requirements are things that not only help us deal with this ridiculous, unpredictable world and helps us sleep at night as well.
I want peace yall. I want to enjoy my life, no matter whether I am in a high or low place at the moment. And I definitely don't want that joy to be determined by a person or a situation.
So as for me; #operationKingdomMindset is in full effect ;)
--------------------------------------------------------<3 --------------------------------------------------------------Oh, the joys of those who do not follow the advice of the wicked, or stand around with sinners, or join in with mockers. But thy delight in the law of the Lord, meditating on it day and night.
- Psalms 1:1-2
Rule # 1: Surround yourself with like minded people.
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