Happy Sunday Everyone!! This post is a little too late to be early morning but hey it's still Sunday! #winning!
As I lay in this comfortable king sized bed, I was trying to figure out what did I want today's topic to be. After thinking for a few minutes, I remembered discovering something interesting about myself at Bible Study. I needed help forgiving.
This past Wednesday, at Bible Study the focus was relationships and the importance of improving them. The bottom line is.... No man is an island. No matter how much you keep repeating the words of Drake, "No new Friends". The fact still remains that everybody needs somebody. So while I was sitting there listening and getting some Word, God brought to my attention how much I hadn't forgiven an old friend.
I guess I thought I had. I didn't kick the person out of my life --as much as I wanted to at the time of the initial problem. I hadn't even been letting it hang over their head -- or so I thought.
But it was still hanging heavy over my heart. My trust was broken, and I was confused. Being in the family I was brought up in, we were taught how to let people go. So it kinda threw me off when after praying God spoke to me and said, "FORGIVE". To this very day, some are still confused as to why I hadn't ended the friendship but all I can say is God has deeper plans.
Well now here I am learning the art of forgiveness. Its a process, this post isn't even a post about how I "got over" its more of "how I am getting through". Truth be told, this whole process has been confusing at times because me being a human being tends to remember the hurt and pain, especially when it comes someone you are closest to. Yet an still, as a Believer, we are to forgive and sometimes the answer is simple but the process is hard.
What helps me forgive? Honestly, the thought of God forgiving me daily because I can definitely think of somethings I've done recently that needs some major forgiveness. A broken person in a broken world means broken commitments and the need for endless forgiveness.
And so, I am learning how to truly do that. It is amazing at the things we tend to remember though. And the saying is true that "a person may not remember what you said but they will remember how you made them feel". Our psychological being is always looking for a way to protect itself and so that means remembering where the hurt came from and staying completely away from that. However, the crazy thing is that God teaches us to do the opposite and as a young woman in Christ, many times I fail with agreeing with His logic. Not because it is wrong (because He is perfect) but because my human was made in a fallen world of sin.
It desires the opposite.
Forgiveness is so deep yall, the deeper the pain, the longer the process but I do believe that it is possible. If I can be forgiven then I can forgive. I just pray God continues to hold my hand through it. To put on my big girl pants and let forgiveness be an automatic in my heart.
PLUS --- holding something over someone's head only drains your life and NOBODY GOT TIME FOR ANY OF THAT!
It's about having that peace, and I am not saying that it will always be easy but as the saying goes, "To get what you have never gotten, you have to do what you have never done". And I am thinking that forgiveness is under that category as well.
So to whomever may be reading this, let me just say that it is understandable to feel hurt and to want to protect yourself from that hurt. It is okay to be mad and frustrated but after that is said and done, it is also okay to love HIM, YOU, and maybe even that person, enough to forgive their debts against you.
You never know when you may need that same amount of mercy lent back to you.
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